"So are you serene?"

I work as a waitress at a mexican food restaurant, and given that my name is Serenity, one question I get on a daily basis is, "are you serene?" What do you say to that? "Nope, I'm all drama, dude!" Or with arrogance I could always just say "yes". If only these people knew. It's almost hard not to go off on them sometimes. "I woke up at 6 a.m. to a 3 year old knocking at his bedroom door, thus waking his 1 year old brother, thus making the mere IDEA of going back to sleep a total impossibility, then I changed dirty diapers, broke up sibling rivalries that rival any world war, washed 6 loads of laundry (only 6 more to go, yay!), played "what's that in the baby's mouth" and lost when whatever it was got swallowed. Then as soon as my husband gets home I give him a quick kiss on my way out the door to work where I got asked 5 times if I'm serene! I haven't even gotten a chance to pee in peace today, much less have serenity emanating out from myself. But usually, I just smile and say, "I like to think so, but I'm sure my husband disagrees."

No, my life isn't all that bad. Sometimes the chaos is alot of fun. I'm, as you've probably already guessed, Serenity. I'm 24, I've been married to my high school sweetheart for almost 5 years, and we have 2 little boys. Braeden is 3, Reese is 1. I do stay home with the kids during the day, and work at night after my husband gets home. I also teach the junior high and high school youth girls sunday school class at my church. I enjoy all that I do, but just like anyone, I can get burned out pretty easily. Some days I'm just down feeling like all I ever do is stay home with the kids or go to work. I complain alot about being tired and stressed (and rightly so if you ask me) but I do see the blessings and beauty that my family is. It's all a gift from God. He planned everything perfectly. I can't imagine a better man for me than the one God's given me, and we do have the cutest, silliest little boys in the world. We're trying to raise them up to be responsible people and love God so it's important that I try to be as serene as possible. That only comes from trusting in God and being aware and thankful of his blessings.

My sister in law started a blog similar to this today. Call me a copy cat if you'd like, but I'd like to refer to it as inspiration. I've always wanted to try to blog but didn't want to sound whiny or arrogant, but you know what? I don't really care. This blog is for me to get a chance to write down the good, the bad, and the ugly, and if you wanna hang on for the ride, be my guest! Just know that I go fast, and sometimes it's a bumpy road, on that path to serenity.